Please remember

Don't speak to me today, I cannot hear you

Speak to my son

Don't think of me today, I cannot feel you

Think of my son

Don't look at me today, you will not see me

Look at my son

Today, if you really want to talk to me

Speak to my son

I only hear my son today...

(written June 22, 2010)

A future I never imagined

What happens to my mind
That I can't yet grasp the fact
You won't come back, you can't come back


Maybe you're protecting me from the inconceivable, the unbelievable
Thank you if that's true
It's good to think that you are by my side


Life exists in a time warp for me
The present is a future I never imagined
The past leaves me questioning if it ever happened
And the future?
It is not a vision of growth and prosperity
It is a hope I can carry on without your physical presence
And carry you with me always


It is an appreciation for every day that I can make it through
It is a love for the ones you loved
And for those who loved you, and remember you


I can't yet accept you're gone
I will never be over this
And for now, I will just be